Monday 17 October 2011

100 Things I want to do in my life

  1. Finish a novel

  2. Professionally publish a book

  3. Have my own garden, plant vegetables, fruit & herbs

  4. Feel good in my own body

  5. Speak ten languages fluently

  6. Join a ballett class and don't care about what I look like to others

  7. Read an encyclopedia

  8. Visit all continents

  9. Live in the U.K., preferably the North

  10. Go swimming in a lake as beautiful & calm as the one in Austria I swam in years ago

  11. Feel good enough about myself and be serious enough regarding my work to be able to say „I'm an artist/writer/musician“ without shame or irony

  12. Master all Chess openings

  13. Be at a point where sports is only joy and selfimprovement, no punishment.

  14. Master the piano and get over that „silly trauma“ of never being good enough for it

  15. Sing in public. Not in a choir. My voice has to be heard.

  16. Get a PhD or equivalent.

  17. Find inner peace that isn't disturbed by people I don't care about.

  18. Act in a play on stage or in a movie, it doesn't matter how low-key, but I need to be able to immerse myself.

  19. Win a literary prize. Not really something I can „do“ but it is a dream goal for which I can work: write, write, write and be critical & positive.

  20. Play a concert. Even if it's to 3 people.

  21. Record an album.

  22. Live in the nature.

  23. Go backpacking/hiking.

  24. Teach someone else a language.

  25. Have my work in an exhibition.

  26. Work as a critic. Either be payed or get into things for free/get on setlists.

  27. Do work for veganism and animal rights that doesn't merely point the finger and is thereby counterproductive.

  28. Something to raise awareness of mental illness, particularly depression & eating disorders (if/when I'm in a good enough place for that).

  29. Design my own clothes to wear & have a unique wardrobe that expresses my personality.

  30. Wear cloths that would normally make me selfconcious and worry about drawing too much attention. Wear make up when I feel like it.

  31. Try to get a buddhist monk mindset minus the religious dogma shit.

  32. Be able to do splits!

  33. Not worry about appearance so much. It's doing no one any good.

  34. Be politically active & not quiet about my socialist humanitarian worldview.

  35. Read all the classics. They're classics for a reason even when they're no fun to read.

  36. Have a huge library full of books I've read & plan to read. No pretentious stuff.

  37. Write poetry without pointlessly feeling ashamed!

  38. Learn Welsh, Turkish, Finnish, Arabic, Latin, Italian, Swedish, Russian, Japenese, etc. Perfect my Dutch, Norwegian/Danish, English, German, French, Spanish & Icelandic.

  39. Be able to eat intuitivly without counting calories, fat, etc.

  40. Know all countries, capitals, flags and some basic cultural facts about the countries.

  41. Read political theory to understand my political viewpoint better & argue for it.

  42. Go Skinny-dipping.

  43. Do a „proper“ last-minute travel where I don't know where I'm going the day I'm going.

  44. Have & make mixtapes that reflect the stages of my life.

  45. Paint a wall-sized/bigger-than-me painting.

  46. Create a piece of art & let nature destroy it.

  47. Go raw vegan for some time (when I feel fully recovered).

  48. If in a job/life situation that's bad for me: try to get out of it as soon as possible.

  49. Take singing lessons.

  50. Take more weekend/day trips to cities, especially places close to me.

  51. Be at a world cup game (alternatively: watch Barcelona do something awesome)

  52. Go skiing/snowboarding once.

  53. Learn to dance flamenco or tango. Take up tapdancing again.

  54. Go fruit picking.

  55. Learn to fence & shoot archery.

  56. Learn to make tons of alcohol-free cocktails.

  57. Learn to meditate.

  58. Honestly participate in my passion for numbers and geek around without being afraid of the dreaded wrath of (school)math.

  59. Learn more about physics.

  60. Learn tons about biochemistry, it's possible without university courses, too!

  61. Be more relaxed and still ambitious. Moved and passionate, without going crazy and trying to be perfect. Engaged, not lethargic.

  62. Build & maintain strong muscles, take care of my skin and generally be nice to my body. Listen to my body and respect what it needs.

  63. Regularly work out, feel like a “pro” withut the craziness and competitiveness.

  64. Live for health, since mental and physical health combined is everything there is. Eat healthily but only so far as it's mentally healthy, and apply the same notion for working out, avoiding toxins, drinking pure water & breathing clean air.

  65. Be on a radioshow. If not for hosting than for being a guest who gets to pick songs.

  66. Take flattering pictures of myself.

  67. Don't be afraid to be LEA. Smart, strange and quirky but at times dull, normal and slow. All is fine. Respect that there's no black/white.

  68. If I believe something is the right thing to do (e.g. give up my current life situation) I need to follow through despite being afraid of change.

  69. Learn Martial Arts.

  70. Jump on a trampoline!

  71. Don't be afraid of age. Become an old woman who's glad to be alive. There are still so many things to do when you're old. Listen when your body say “I'm too old for this and that” but don't listen to others when they tell you “you're to old for this and that”.

  72. Help other people, preferably on a personal level. Refugees, Homeless, war victims, neglected children, etc.

  73. Go dumpster-diving.

  74. Look feminine. Then look masculine. Then look like myself.

  75. Do something to try and broaden someone's mind about bisexuality and other non-confirm sexualities.

  76. Be & stay an open-minded feminist who's not afraid of the word and its' implications.

  77. Try psychedelic drugs.

  78. Bake space brownies.

  79. Don't be paranoid about clichés. Listen to Stevenson Ranch Davidsons “Nothing's Cliché” when you forget to.

  80. Find a way to have routine and discipline without mental torture. Remember I'm doing all things in my own interest, not for some “greater goal”.

  81. Sleep enough & get up early.

  82. Get a tattoo/tattoos and don't regret/deny development.

  83. Have long-going blogs/websites that some regular readers.

  84. Regularly read books in languages other than German or English.

  85. Keep my notebooks alive. “An uneximaned life is...

  86. Always have lists for things to do. In the pauses when I don't: drift & dream. I always end up at lists anyway.

  87. Play music regularly & don't be afraid of words, harmonic melodies and simple chords.

  88. Go to Glastonbury & let out my hippie me: Don't be anal about which bands to see, just enjoy atmosphere & music all around.

  89. Always broaden my mind: music, literature, culture, language, mroals, films, subculture, science. There's so much, it would last 10 lifetimes.

  90. Don't be afraid of love just because it can hurt. All things that mean something are emotionally multilayered.

  91. Always try new techniques for painting, cooking, photography, etc. Always be a novice, humble & excited to learn.

  92. Have an average weight so you can have people/doctors/everyone shut up about it and don't need to constantly obsess over it. Don't let my weight be this stupid thing they can blame all their shortcomings on.

  93. Speak with a convincing Scottish accent.

  94. Go to exhibitions and museums and try to see the art like a child would. Then stop and look at it myself.

  95. Reguarly get rid of things I don't need. Clothes I never wear, records & books I hate, old magazines I keep for “someday”. Sell, throw away or donate.

  96. Be positive. This is something I can DO. It's not easy but as long as depression doesn't have it's claws fully around me I can fight for happiness. Rationalize, smile and then be optimistic for no other reason but because it feels better!

  97. Have close male friends. Don't be afraid of men in general (they ones you are scared of you can still hate and file under socially-constructed human arseholes).

  98. Learn to do proper pirouettes.

  99. Try to do less multitasking. Breathing and having a heartbeat at the same time is fine. Listening to music and write is, too. Everything more challenging should be avoided. Simplefy and concentrate on the important things and get them done.

  100. Try to live without the internet & tons of electronics at times.

Monday 5 September 2011

Goal 51 - 51. Listen to Pitchfork's Top 100 Albums of the 90s List.

51. Listen to Pitchfork's Top 100 Albums of the 90s List. (0/100)

I didn't specify which one so I'll take the first edition from 1999. Here it is:

100 Aphex Twin - Selected Ambient Works 85-92 [R&S 1993]
99 Smart Went Crazy - Con Art [Dischord 1997] ?
98 MK Ultra - The Dream is Over [Artichoke 1999] ?
97 Massive Attack - Mezzanine [Virgin 1998]
96 Blur - Parklife [Virgin 1994]
95 Primal Scream - Screamadelica [Sire/Warner Bros. 1991]
94 Phish - Billy Breathes [Elektra 1996] ?
93 Underworld - Dubnobasswithmyheadman [Wax Trax!/TVT 1994]
92 Pale Saints - The Comforts of Madness [4AD 1990] ?
91 Sonic Youth - Dirty [DGC 1992]
90 Stereolab - Dots and Loops [Elektra 1997]
89 Spinanes - Manos [Sub Pop 1993]
88 R.E.M. - Automatic for the People [Warner Bros. 1992]
87 Tortoise - Millions Now Living Will Never Die [Thrill Jockey 1996] ?
86 Morphine - Cure for Pain [Ryko 1993]
85 Neutral Milk Hotel - In the Aeroplane Over the Sea [Merge 1998] ?
84 Superchunk - No Pocky for Kitty [Matador; Merge 1992; 1999] ?
83 Throwing Muses - The Real Ramona [4AD/Sire 1991] ?
82 Blur - 13 [Virgin 1999]
81 Hum - Downward is Heavenward [RCA 1998] ?
80 Lilys - Eccsame the Photon Band [spinART 1995] ?
79 Weezer - Pinkerton [DGC 1996]
78 Sugar - Copper Blue [Ryko 1992] ?
77 Nirvana - In Utero [DGC 1993]
76 Sunny Day Real Estate - Diary [Sub Pop 1994] ?
75 Super Furry Animals - Radiator [Creation; Flydaddy 1997; 1999]
74 6ths - Wasps' Nest [London 1995] ?
73 Belle and Sebastian - Tigermilk [Electric Honey; Matador 1996; 1999] ?
72 Uncle Tupelo - Anodyne [Sire/Warner Bros. 1993] ?
71 Portishead - Dummy [Go! Discs/London 1994]
70 Blur - The Great Escape [Virgin 1995]
69 Magnetic Fields - The Charm of the Highway Strip [Merge 1994] ?
68 Polvo - Exploded Drawing [Touch and Go 1996] ?
67 Stereolab - Transient Random-Noise Bursts with Announcements [Too Pure/Elektra 1993]
66 Soul Coughing - Ruby Vroom [Slash/Reprise 1994] ?
65 Modest Mouse - The Lonesome Crowded West [Up 1997] ?
64 Fugazi - Red Medicine [Dischord 1995] ??
63 Amon Tobin - Permutation [Ninja Tune 1998]
62 Walt Mink - Miss Happiness [Caroline 1992] ?
61 Jawbreaker - 24-Hour Revenge Therapy [Tupelo 1994] ?
60 Portishead - Portishead [Go! Discs/London 1997]
59 12 Rods - Split Personalities [V2 1998] ?
58 Red House Painters - Ocean Beach [4AD 1995] ?
57 Tom Waits - Mule Variations [Epitaph 1999]
56 Tom Waits - Bone Machine [Island 1992]
55 Belle and Sebastian - If You're Feeling Sinister [The Enclave; Matador 1997; 1999] ?
54 Spoon - A Series of Sneaks [Elektra 1998] ?
53 His Name is Alive - Mouth by Mouth [4AD 1993] ?
52 Fugazi - Repeater [Dischord 1990] ??
51 Laika - Silver Apples of the Moon [Too Pure/Beggars Banquet 1995; 1999]
50 Smashing Pumpkins - Siamese Dream [Virgin 1993]
49 Low - I Could Live in Hope [Vernon Yard 1994]
48 Heatmiser - Mic City Sons [Caroline 1996] ?
47 Amon Tobin - Bricolage [Ninja Tune 1997]
46 Elliott Smith - Either/Or [Kill Rock Stars 1997]
45 Pixies - Bossanova [4AD/Elektra 1990]
44 Sebadoh - Bakesale [Sub Pop 1994]
43 Frank Black - Frank Black [4AD/Elektra 1993]
42 Dismemberment Plan - Emergency and I [DeSoto 1999]
41 Built to Spill - Keep It Like a Secret [Warner Bros. 1999]
40 Kristin Hersh - Hips and Makers [4AD/Elektra 1994]
39 Built to Spill - Perfect from Now On [Warner Bros. 1997]
38 Chavez - Ride the Fader [Matador 1996]
37 Frank Black - Teenager of the Year [4AD/Elektra 1994]
36 American Music Club - Everclear [Alias 1991]
35 Bjork - Post [Elektra 1995]
34 Slint - Spiderland [Touch and Go 1991]
33 Guided by Voices - Alien Lanes [Matador 1995]
32 Archers of Loaf - Icky Mettle [Alias 1993]
31 Breeders - Last Splash [4AD/Elektra 1993]
30 Stereolab - Emperor Tomato Ketchup [Elektra 1996]
29 Shudder to Think - Pony Express Record [Columbia 1994]
28 Wrens - Secaucus [Grass; Wind-Up 1996]
27 Tortoise - TNT [Thrill Jockey 1998]
26 Brainiac - Bonsai Superstar [Grass; Wind-Up 1994; 1996]
25 They Might Be Giants - Flood [Elektra 1990]
24 Fugazi - In On the Kill Taker [Dischord 1993]
23 Elliott Smith - XO [Dreamworks 1998]
21 Beck - Mellow Gold [DGC 1994]
20 Jeff Buckley - Grace [Columbia 1994]
19 Jawbox - For Your Own Special Sweetheart [Atlantic 1994]
18 Bjork - Homogenic [Elektra 1997]
17 Walt Mink - El Producto [Atlantic 1996]
16 Beastie Boys - Check Your Head [Capitol 1992]
15 Sunny Day Real Estate - How It Feels to Be Something On [Sub Pop 1998]
14 Weezer - Weezer [DGC 1993]
13 Radiohead - The Bends [Capitol 1995]
12 Pixies - Trompe Le Monde [4AD/Elektra 1991]
11 Built to Spill - There's Nothing Wrong with Love [Up 1996]
10 Pavement - Crooked Rain, Crooked Rain [Matador 1994]
09 Beck - Odelay [DGC 1996]
08 Tori Amos - Little Earthquakes [Atlantic 1992]
07 DJ Shadow - Endtroducing... [Mo'Wax/London 1996]
06 Nirvana - Nevermind [DGC 1991]
05 Liz Phair - Exile in Guyville [Matador 1993]
04 Guided by Voices - Bee Thousand [Scat 1994]
03 Pavement - Slanted and Enchanted [Matador 1992]
02 Radiohead - OK Computer [Capitol 1997]
01 My Bloody Valentine - Loveless [Sire/Warner Bros. 1991]

Thursday 1 September 2011

Goal 30 - Read 20 Biographies

1.Stephen Fry - Moab Is My Washpot (audiobook) (25.03.2011)
2. Arne Bellstorf - Baby's in black. The story of Astrid Kirchherr & Stuart Sutcliffe (15.04.2011)
3. Michel Onfray - Nietzsche (26.08.2011)

Wednesday 31 August 2011

Progress August 2011

Finished:

Goal 29 - Read 50 Non-Fiction books

34. Peter Singer - Animal Liberation (21.07.2011)
35. Holger Rainers - Psychotherapeuten im Visier (23.07.2011)
36. Jessica Spector (Ed.) - Prostitution and Pornography: Philosophical Debate About the Sex Industry (29.07.2011)
37. Julian Offray LaMettrie - Der Mensch eine Maschine (07.08.2011)
38. Josef Schurz - Vom Bilsenkraut zum LSD : Giftsuchten u. Suchtgifte (09.08.2011)
39. James Nicholas Young - 101 plots used and abused (09.08.2011)
40. Cracked - You Might Be a Zombie and Other Bad News: Shocking but Utterly True Facts (10.08.2011)
41. John Fuhrman - Eat to Live: The Revolutionary Formula for Fast and Sustained Weight Loss (11.08.2011)
42. Mark Perryman - 1. FC Philosophie: Flach denken, hoch gewinnen (12.08.2011)
43. Hartmut Krüger - Die Charta der Vereinten Nationen und das Statut des Internationalen Gerichtshofs (13.08.2011)
44. Francesco Cirillo - The Pomodoro Technique (16.08.2011)
45. Eve Ensler - The Good Body (16.08.2011)
46. Karl Marx - Manifest Der Kommunistischen Partei (05.2011)
48. . Leslie Iversen - Drogen und Medikamente (26.08.2011)
49. Norah Vincent - Self-Made Man: One Woman's
Journey into Manhood and Back Again (26.08.2011)
50. Michel Onfray - Nietzsche (26.08.2011)


    In Progress:

    9. Work out (at the Gym, riding bike, yoga, etc) for 1001 hours. (10/1001)
    4 hours in a month? Thankfully it was more and I merely forgot writing it down. :/

    11. Spend 101 Euros on food in a month (3x times). (1/3)
    Did this in July. 101 IS very little. Thank God for pasta and bananas.

    12. Try out/make up 101 new recipes /take pictures & post them on both vegan blogs regularly (4x a month). (11/101)
    I'm still behind but I posted a simple raw fruit dish, a watermelon smoothie & a rice asparagus casserole.

    13. Go to 50 different cafés/restaurants. (20/50)
    5 new places. I was on holidays in a tiny town with my mother, so no new great discoveries but at least a new challenge for me as a Vegan...


    26. Read 500 Books. (55/500)

    56. Peter Singer - Animal Liberation (21.07.2011)
57. Holger Rainers - Psychotherapeuten im Visier (23.07.2011)
58. Kingsley Amis - Dear Illusion (23.07.2011)
59. Kressmann Taylor - Address Unknown (23.07.2011)
60. Manuele Fior - Fünftausend Kilometer in der Sekunde (23.07.2011)
61. Daniel Woodrell - Winter's Bone (26.07.2011)
62. Catherine O'Flynn - Was Mit Kate Geschah (29.07.2011)
63. Jessica Spector (Ed.) - Prostitution and Pornography: Philosophical Debate About the Sex Industry (29.07.2011)
63. Irvine Welsh - Porno (1.08.2011)
64. J. M. Coetzee - Das Leben der Tiere (re-read) (04.08.2011)
65. Gunnur Gunnursson - Advent im Hochgebirge (05.08.2011)
66. Orhan Pamuk - The White Castle (05.08.2011)
67. Julian Offray LaMettrie - Der Mensch eine Maschine (07.08.2011)
68. Gabriel García Márquez - No One Writes to the Colonel: and Other Stories (08.08.2011)
69. Hertha Müller - Der König verneigt sich und tötet (09.08.2011)
70. Josef Schurz - Vom Bilsenkraut zum LSD : Giftsuchten u. Suchtgifte (09.08.2011)
71. James Nicholas Young - 101 plots used and abused (09.08.2011)
72. Cracked - You Might Be a Zombie and Other Bad News: Shocking but Utterly True Facts (10.08.2011) 73. John Fuhrman - Eat to Live: The Revolutionary Formula for Fast and Sustained Weight Loss (11.08.2011)
74. Mark Perryman - 1. FC Philosophie: Flach denken, hoch gewinnen (12.08.2011)
75. Hartmut Krüger - Die Charta der Vereinten Nationen und das Statut des Internationalen Gerichtshofs (13.08.2011)
76. Herta Müller - Der Mensch ist ein großer Fasan auf der Welt (15.08.2011)
77. Francesco Cirillo - The Pomodoro Technique (16.08.2011)
78. Eve Ensler - The Good Body (16.08.2011)
79. Ernest Hemingway - The Old Man and the Sea (23.08.2011)
80. McSweeney 19 (05.2011)
81. Karl Marx - Manifest Der Kommunistischen Partei (05.2011)
82. Leslie Iversen - Drogen und Medikamente (26.08.2011)
83. Norah Vincent - Self-Made Man: One Woman's Journey into Manhood and Back Again (26.08.2011)
84. Michel Onfray - Nietzsche (26.08.2011)
85. Eoin Colfer - Artemis Fowl: The Atlantis Complex (28.08.2011)

3. Michel Onfray - Nietzsche (26.08.2011)... so so beautiful. I love Nietzsche so much <3


4. Manuele Fior - Fünftausend Kilometer in der Sekunde (23.07.2011)
5. Michel Onfray - Nietzsche (26.08.2011)

I've finished "Porno" so now I've read all novels. I only got one play and one short story collection to go.

39. Watch 300 Movies. (21/300) & 40. Watch a movie at the cinema 150 times. (13/150)

35. Dead Man Walking (26.07.2011)
36. Aimée & Jaguar (29.07.2011)
37. Lord Save Us From Your Followers (30.07.2011)
38. Trust (31.07.2011)
39. Harry Potter 7 II (3.08.2011) (cinema)
40. Closer (4.08.2011)
41. Demetri Martin. Person. (5.08.2011)
42. Im Schatten (07.08.2011)
43. Das Blaue vom Himmel (10.08.2011)
44. Komt een vrouw bij de doctor (13.08.2011)
45. Ik ook van jou (13.08.2011)
46. Alle for én (14.08.2011)
47. Beautiful Bitch (15.08.2011)
48. Eine Insel namens Udo (17.08.2011) (cinema)
49. Blue Valentine (17.08.2011) (cinema)
50. De Gelukkige Huisvrouw (19.08.2011)
51. Inside Job (19.08.2011)
52. The Greatest Movie Ever Sold (21.08.2011)
53. Toast (28.08.2011) (cinema)
54. Schlafkrankheit (29.08.2011) (cinema)

53. Recite three poems from memory (1.Blake, 2.Larkin, 3.choose) (0/3)
... I ordered a collection of Larkin's work now. So....

61. Write 101 letters. (15/101)
Sent off quite a few. :)

uploaded 140 .... phew...

79. Play music for 101 hours. (4/101)
Finally picked up the guitar again. also started recording a bit. Its fun.

97. Take part in 1001 competitions. (160/1001)
...so much entering of emails just to get on guestlists. 100 this month.